Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Malaria, Malaise, and Migraine's
So I'm busy dealing with all the things life is throwing at me. Things like malaria with a little side of malaise and then followed by a severe migraine. I'm recovering from it all now. But man, I wish I could get a break. I'm on the job prowl so if you know anything in Nigeria please give me a holler!
I woke up on Friday and had a bad taste in my mouth. By 11am my head was killing me, I was freezing while resting by the pool under the hot Adamawan sun, every scent and sound only made the pain worse, all I wanted was my bed, but the car was acting up and I was stuck at the club. Finally by 1pm I was home and in bed and under the great care of my beloved. I hate malaria. I am going to start taking anti-malaria meds I think. I think it's time I suck it up and risk some kidney problems in lieu of malaria every few months. Seriously, I think it's worth it.
I've been thinking about life and my plans a lot lately. Thinking about my dreams, how I want to live my life, how I want each day to be spent, each holiday to be enjoyed, etc. I am going to try and live more purposefully. I have already been getting up each day (most days) on a schedule, I even manage to make breakfast most days before I leave the house, so I believe I am improving. I do feel like I need to be writing more on this blog and to others. That helps me do some more self-reflection than I've been doing. I have been doing lots of writing, but I am worried still that most of it's crap, but I feel like it's getting better.
Yesterday, I had a bad day. I felt really down. I applied for two jobs and I really hope I get one of them and I am worried that my bad mood might have shown through my cover letter, but I tried so hard not too. I am beginning to feel the need for a job to wake up too. I never thought I'd be saying that, but I guess somewhere deep down inside I am longing for it.
I am also longing and dreaming of California. The sunshine. My sister. A few friends. The ocean. The food. The shopping. I long for it all. I long for a cup of coffee at the Coffee House or the Coffee Bean. I dream of sitting and watching a movie in the theatre. California dreaming has been a common occurrence. It is my intention of spending my Christmas holiday there. I already have a list of foods I intend on making for my big sis. lol. But I have noticed that in the past six months, I have been longing for the moments I am away from Yola much less than before. :) This makes me think about Yola and Nigeria in a different way.
***Side Note: I know I have some readers out there. I know I do. So please, post a comment. Tell me your thoughts. Tell me something about yourself. Tell me what you enjoy and what you don't. Please, I am writing for all of you afterall...